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Letter from Tamara, daughter of Maria Luisa Posa-Dominado

Posted by anakbayantoronto on December 18, 2008

Maria Luisa “Luing” Posa-Dominado was a community organizer and human rights advocate, and is one of the victims of “enforced disappearances” which have taken place under the Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo regime.  Luing was abducted by unidentified men in fatigue clothing on April 12, 2007, and is still missing to this day.

Below is a letter to Luing from her 15-year-old daughter, Tamara, written just before Luing’s birthday on August 10 this year.

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15-year-old Tamara Dominado at the celebration of her mother Luing's 53rd birthday on August 10, 2008. Luing was abducted by unidentified men on April 12, 2007 and is still missing.

Dear Nanay,

On August 10, you’ll be 53 already. I really wish you’ll be there when we celebrate it. I’ve missed you so much, everyday and always. And I guess everyone else has, too.

It’s been hard not having you around. Manang has been a pain in the ass as always but she’s trying.

I’ve been living in a dorm for the past 2 months now. It’s been stressful and depressing living there. Some of my high school classmates are staying there too. I get home sick every now and then because I don’t like that place. I don’t know why.

You know this one time; I really got sick because I cried for almost the whole night. Crying makes me weak, I guess. You see, that night, my classmate got home sick and she cried because she missed her mom. And I guess that’s what triggered my fits of crying. You see, I won’t easily admit it and I sometimes forget it, but deep down inside, I miss you so much. I’ve missed you since the day you never came back. I try my best not to talk about you because just a mere memory could bring me on the verge of tears.

I remembered when I first cried in the dorm. We were having our group dynamics and were talking about our lives and problems. When it came to be my turn, I thought I could handle it and they urged me to let out because they said it would lessen the pain, so I talked about you and my life, but it only managed to make me cry and make my head ache for the whole night. Sometimes I wonder if the pain will ever go away.

The last time I cried it was during the first time I went to a cheering practice for the Elektrons. It was my first time to be in the workshop and I had to do it alone because I was late. I guess they weren’t that hard on me like they were on the others. I just had to act three times. It was a nightmare because I couldn’t keep myself from smiling. But on the last scene they turned out the lights. Then they told me to act like a mother begging for food and money to feed her child. I didn’t know what to do so I knelt and acted but I still kept on smiling. And I guess they wanted to piss me off to stop me from smiling so they threw bad comments at me. They were all talking at the same time and I don’t know how I heard this question, but I heard it loud and clear over the other comments. Someone said, “Where’s your mom?” and thinking that it was just gonna be a part of my acting I replied, “She’s dead…” and it took sometime for me to take in those words. I said a whole lot more but then I stopped mid-sentence. The whole weight of what I said bore down on me. It felt like the darkness was squeezing me, seeping into every bit of my humanity, waiting for me to fall off the brink, and then, I cried. And I guess the people around me didn’t understand why I cried. They don’t know. I guess they thought they were a bit rough on me so they were a lot nicer to me after that incident. And somehow it made me laugh a bit. Some of my friends were there to comfort me, too. I wouldn’t have stopped crying if they weren’t there.

And you know what, nay? Remember when I said that I got sick? My friends took care of me that day and I got a lot better in no time. And being around people takes my mind off the sadness. I guess that’s why I’m a bit monophobic now. I get depressed when I’m alone.

What I’m trying to say is, on your birthday, or any other day, nay, you don’t need to worry about me, about us. All you need to do is to worry about yourself and take care, wherever you are. Because I (us, those who you care for) am surrounded by people who care and will help in any way they can. They can make me laugh until my tummy hurts and they’re also crazy just like me.

And as I finish this letter addressed supposedly to you, but will never reach you, I guess, I would like to write these lyrics from a song I heard.

“I’ve lost any chance for me to say,
To say that I miss you,
Say that I love you,
Will someone please tell me I’m OK?…”

– by Tamara

For more coverage of the commemoration of Luing and links to other sites with information about her abduction,visit Arkibong Bayan:

http://www.arkibongbayan.org/2008-08Aug10-luing/luingbday.htm

To find out how you can participate in the campaign to stop extrajudicial killings and enforced disappearances in the Philippines, contact Migrante Ontario Youth: migranteON.youth@gmail.com.

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Coming in January 2009

Posted by anakbayantoronto on December 15, 2008

kabelCrispin Beltran Philippine History Lectures
Part II:  The Philippine Working Class Movement in the Era of U.S. Colonial Rule

Second Half:  The Commonwealth Government and Attempts to Divide the Union Movement
Date and location TBA.
Once again presented in collaboration with the Filipino Students Association of Toronto (FSAT).

Filipino Youth Festival
A whole day of activities on awareness-raising about Philippine history and culture and community engagement.  A collaborative project of Migrante Ontario Youth, Philippine Advocacy Through Arts and Culture, Kapisanan Philippine Centre, Filipino Students’ Association of Toronto, Filipino Canadian Association of Ryerson.
Saturday, January 24, 2008
Time and location TBA.

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MOY member to speak at Saturday Night Love

Posted by anakbayantoronto on December 11, 2008

One of our members will be speaking at Saturday Night Love this Saturday, December 13, on the topic of exploitation of women in the Philippines.  Saturday Night Love is a weekly event hosted by Toronto Poets, consisting of a panel discussion followed by musical and spoken word performances.
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SATURDAY NIGHT LOVE
Saturday, December 13, 2008
7:30pm – 10:00pm
Ritz Caribbean Restaurant, 3rd Floor

606 Yonge Street, just North of Wellesley subway station

Facebook event page:  http://www.facebook.com/events.php?ref=sb#/event.php?eid=63204112432

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